Spangs of thoughts

I know I'm a day late .. but!

I'M BACK IN SINGAPORE!!!!!!!

Miss me???!!!!!!!!!


:"DDDDD

I'll be back on the 13th!


Me & rach were having this conver.

Rach: tmr what you reach airport?

Me: 5.45am. no need send me la, it's too early!

Rach: It's okay.. If I dont see you I will miss u like shit!


AWWWW. I LOVE YOU RACHH.  Why are you not born a guy? HA!
Miss her like hell!! Thats why she's my bestie.

& I got to chat with Shawnie on the phone just now!!! Finally! So long nvr see him already sia.

Just at least got to meet Ronald Darling for awhile before I leave for Shanghai. Will miss him for the days I'm in China!

When I come back, I'm really gonna hardcore workout!! Must follow my plans. Wednesday gonna go swim with Shawnie. He's my workout buddyy. So long never go gym already.
Also when I come back must go for Ladies night with Rach!! So long nvr go club or chill out already.
And, when I come back gonna go picnic with Ron baby .. ! Must spend more time with me!

So manyyyy things to do.
Oh & when I come back I promise myself... I will complete damn PP!!!!!!!!!!! & soon I'll be graduating already. Yay~
Just hope I can go University.

I also wanna get myself inked on my ankle. but still considering.

Ohh I went to see the kittens the cat under my block gave birth to. So cuteeeeeeeee!!!!! Reminds me of Kupu when he was still a little kitty. Awwwwwww. <'3 x 10000098234578.  Too adorable for humankind.

& I'm not sleeping tonight! cause Prada is fetching me at 3.45am, we'll go pick zach up too.
& yes, I've already got my motion sickness pills! Don't worry my friends! SIA has good puke bags too anyway.

Bon Voyage!

I'm finally catching up with technology! XD

Okay half the world probably already knows how to use photoshop & half of the world probably already knows how to make their own blogskins... but I've finally learn to do so!!! I'm brush searching like mad now for my photoshop & gonna edited like mad also. HAHA.

Finally!! I'm not a computer bird-brain anymore!

Alas!
I'm home early today for once! So I had the time to finalllylyyy touch my piano!!!!! awww. Miss my piano so much man.  For weeks I was playing on the terrible plastic keys for the damn rehersals play the same tunes untill even when I'm sleeping the tunes play in my mind. It's insane. The feeling of hitting the wooden keys is so much better.

My mood is still a litte Kanna-sai-ish. However today not bad lar, I was damn late today & while waiting for 169 I didn't realise Zach was beside the girl beside me on my right & John Goh was beside the girl beside me on my left. Hahah!! All late together!
And I walked into class & got to watch Micheal Jackson Video. What a nice start. We were suppose to be analysing camera angles of course but everyone was marvelling over MJ & his crazy fan that went on stage hugged him & doesn't wanna go down. nice.

My team was nice too, I'm with Kelvin ( vin vin!!!), Edric, Ryan & Gary!!!! The School is damn cheapo la. Cut cost & ask us to be the production crew for IGNITE. So must rack our brains come up with plans & camera positing & ya-da ya-da.

oh the school Subway sells HAATO gelato ice-cream ( which zach introduced to me) & since I was craving for ice-cream I went to get Rum & Raisin one. Ohhhh gosh. Orgasmic sia. HAHAHAH.   

Sadly I've my head is being really a pain. I had sharp pains on the right side of my brain ytd & today the pain was on my left. It hurt so bad & I can't even rest a finger on that spot. It's damn sensitive. Zach say it occurs to mostly women what 'pian tou tong'. Say go acupunture.
I think I'm dying la. head always pain. Should go accupunture one day. But I'm quite afraid of needles & I can't really image so many needles going into my head. Aeehh!


I'M DAMN LUCKY TO HAVE PRADA AS A FRIEND!! Get to sit her vehicle home every rehersal. T_T Prada. you rock la.

Oh Susanne made us each bring home one of the equipment to put in our laguange & I got the video cam + freaking heavy  tripod stand.
Aiyoo. It's laying in my bedroom now. Expensive cam. Hope nothing happens to it!

Oh & I done my FYP report already!!! Good girl or what? Actually it's cause today someone told me that it was dued ytd. opps. Hahhaa, lucky Ting hsiang was nice.


Toodles.


Romantic love reaches out in little ways,
showing attention & admiration.
Romantic love remembers what pleases a woman,
what excites her, & what surprises her.
It's actions whisper: You're the most special person in my life.

~Charles Stanley

Charles Stanley is like the most romantic & sweetest man to be able to write this.
good.

There were a lot of things I wanted to blog about!!!!!!
But I lost all my mood to do so. ;_;

I miss Rach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well, fuck everything la.
after the 13th then I can have some time to do the things I need to do & go out with my dear friends that I have been neglecting & missing.
Fuck FYP also.      I shall submit my report after I come back.
Aiyo. somemore got PP.

kill me now.


I miss the times when I had ppl to talk to & when all my dear mates were still fun & loveable. Everyone just seemed to have changed, I miss how my classmates were before FYP ( the one still as lovable is Nathan.) & I miss meeting Rach during breaks.. I miss chatting in the back of the class with Zaim, I miss hanging out with Shawnie. I miss those frequent steamboat outings we used to have!!! I miss talking to my BF & laughing & joking so much on the phone & in person.    I miss the time when Zach & i would go shopping or at least chat on MSN & have so much fun in class.
I miss how I use to cuddle my cats while they are sleeping.  I miss how much more trust-worthy my maid was. I miss my father when he was still alive & that I could still pretend we were a normal family. I miss the times when my mom had a car & would at least do abit of sports.

I miss , I miss , I misss!!!!!

I miss how I could somehow cheer my self up & face the world upfront & strong & feeling so great & invincible that I just wanna fly.

;_;
how the hell can a person get so depress? tell me!!!     
Nowadays, if it's not about money, it's about status, if it's not about that it's about being number 1 & putting everyone down. If not it's about being fake & trying to get accepted. 

Tired. Tired of hearing & seeing people like that.

I'm also tired of controlling my emotions & keeping everything in. But sometimes it's not that I want to but I just don't get a chance to express rightfully the thing I wanted to express. It just gets harder & harder. to the point that I don't know how to tell another person what I want or what I'm feeling.

It's so tough.

I don't think I've been this depressed for a long time already.
& I don't know what's the trigger either? Stress from school? Stress from trying to maintain a good shape & appearance? Sadness from seeing my friends drift apart? Sadness from not spending enough happy moments with the one I love?   I have no idea. The sadness & sourness is just in my heart.

& gosh. I my dark circles can't even be covered up by my face power la! so tired.   

At least I feel better after writing it out here!!
& I watch Ijimae,  my god so touching & sad cried buckets in just the first few episodes!

This really shows I'm going through an emo phrase sia.
Aiyo.
I need some love & laughter & hugs.
A real tight hug.


Okay I whineeed enough!
Time for beddddddd.


Toodles.